I’ve decided to go back on my soup diet and I am so super, super excited that I’m struggling to wait until Monday to start!


Nothing but low fat soup – I prefer chicken or tomato – diet coke, water and black coffee. If I’m really struggling, I will allow myself a small can of baked beans in replacement for the soup, to make me feel that little bit more full.

I’ve also bought some plain low fat crackers to keep in my desk at work – god love my colleagues, but they are terrible influences when it comes to weight loss. Our office seems to have a never ending supply of pastries, cookies, doughnuts, boxes of chocolates...At least if I have my crackers to hand, I can nibble on them to beat the temptation. I’ve also bought myself a box of the lower fat muesli – My general rule when I’m in “ana” mode is not to eat breakfast at all but I have to be honest with myself If I want to do this properly and succeed and that means acknowledging the fact that when I’m due on my period, I am a ravenous beast. At least if I have the muesli to hand I’ll be prepared and can have an (almost) guilt free breakfast to tide me other rather than ending up binging.



I am so god damn PSYCHED to have my head back in this place again. I’m ready, I’m positively chomping at the bit to start this up again.



I need to contain myself and make sure I do this properly. I’m getting extra prepared and I will not set myself up for a fail. I know that it’s best to wait and start on Monday, because I have too much planned socially over the next few days and there’s no way I would get away with not eating in front of certain friends (We have a four day weekend due to a bank holiday and royal wedding).

It further complicates matters that my boyfriend pretty much lives in my flat with me – although I haven’t been in ana mode over the past few months, old habits die hard and he’s questioned me over a few little things, such as my love of chugging black coffee before a meal or probably the rabbit in headlights look I must get when he suggests a takeaway after a night out.

I’ll have to be very very careful around him so as not to raise his suspicions.



Come Monday I will be posting every intake and outtake on www.myfitnesspal.com – A fantastic website that counts every calorie you put in and burn off and gives you your balance at the end of every day. Even better, it’s free! I’ll post the link to my personal diary nearer the time so you can all see where I’m at. The thought of you all seeing my current weight...*shudder*. I have allowed myself to swell up to beached whale proportions. However, exposing my shame and knowing that If I slip up people will know about it will just give me even more willpower.



Once I’m back in the game I’m aiming to start doing a few mini fasts – one or two days at a time – nothing but liquids (not including the soup).

One step at a time....